Monday, January 14, 2013

Back to School: Day 4 [Gray Eyes]

The day was pretty good. Well, not just good. It was great.
This entry shall be a bit more brief than the past ones. I intend to hit the bed as soon as possible. I will need to wake up early tomorrow and hopefully get some good sleep tonight. But just like the past few days, I've been too excited about a lot of things and I've been doing a lot of thinking as well. Sadly, I haven't been getting enough sleep. But hopefully, I'll be able to get at least 7 hours tonight.

Today, I got hired. And it seems to be like a really nice place to work. They offered me part-time, and that's totally fine to me. After all, I planned on putting my studies as a priority. And I intend to push through with it and finally get it done. I will be in University this year or studying a program towards a career. That's my goal. This job is here to keep the income constant so I can finance the things I need to do in order to step up my earnings and be better financially. Nice, sweet and romantic just doesn't cut it. I need to be better. But at the same time, not lose sight or awareness of what kind of person I am. Some people just start caring more about money and totally forget everything else. I may have changed quite a bit. But there are parts of my old self that I know I need to retain and keep. Even though sometimes I feel like they are just superficial qualities that made me weak, I know for a fact that those aspects of myself made me the nice person I've always strived to be.

Spent some time with her today as well. I couldn't meet up with her earlier than I hoped. But it was okay. It was nice to see her again and learn that her knee is feeling better. She helped me find a few clothing article at Simons before we headed out for coffee. She asked me if I had class tonight... I didn't want to tell her that I did. Because I didn't want her to feel bad for making me skip class for her. But at the same time, I didn't want to lie to her. I'm not the type of person who would cheat or lie to a girl. Never was, never will be. But I thought to myself one night, that this is a new beginning. A new year, a new job, a new girl that I'm interested in. I want to get as many of these opportunities right and make sure I do my best in handling them. So I thought that maybe this time, with this really pretty and interesting girl, I'd attempt one of the most honorable and admirable feat a man could ever do for a girl. And that is, to never, not once, not ever, lie to her. So far, so good. I wanna see how far I can get with this. I'm sure it won't be easy. Because sometimes, there are just things you don't need to tell a girl. But if she asked, I intend to do my best to make every word an honest one. But it seems sometimes it could be detrimental. I mean, she wanted me to go to class after she found out. But I wanted to spend the evening with her. Later on, she told me she had a family dinner and I respected that and told her she should go and we'll just reschedule, no problem. But it was kinda unusual for her to suddenly remember that last minute. I have this feeling she just did that so I can go to class.
If that's the case, then it just proves she's not a selfish person. And that's awesome.

It kinda bums me out that I might not get to see her at all in the next few months. But at least she agreed on spending a late Valentines with me. And given the things she told me, I'm actually glad she decided to go with me that day. Because regardless of whether a girl likes Valentines or not, she deserves to have at least one good, if not awesome, Valentines day. And I intend to make it so. She's been let down. I won't be that guy.
I asked her out a month before. I just realized. Talk about being excited.

There's so much more to write, but I gotta be in bed soon. Cutting this short.
Writing more tomorrow.

Oh, and school was good. Nothing new. Just gotta work more on my assignments. And hopefully get them all done before the deadline. I'm confident that things are going to be easy in this class. Piece of cake.

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