Last SitRep was all the way back from November of last year. Quite a few things happened in the time from that date to today. Though, it may not seem as eventful as other reports, tonight's entry is definitely packed with considerably important occasions. And in certain points, quite an interesting and appreciated highlights.
I've been busy, or at least kept myself busy and slowly working towards my goals. Lessons have been learned and a lot of my weaknesses were realized in the past few months. With the help of certain people and thankfully for my ability to sit down and reflect upon myself, I was able to deduce my situation in life and the facts/issues that revolved around my existence. Namely, my educational standing, career path, love life and unanswered paternal questions.
Hopefully, I will be able to accomplish a significant chunk of my studies in order to establish a solid and reliable career in hopes of being financially reliable/capable this year. And at the same time, be able to find someone who I can share my life, success and dreams with. I made the mistake of making someone my world. And when that person decided that I was not worth it anymore, I was left with nothing but a vast void that ultimately broke me beyond repair. But because of that, I realized that it was just wrong to make someone, regardless of how much you love that person, your everything. Your world. Being in a healthy relationship entailed that you are meant to share. Everything. But didn't necessarily mean for your significant other to be your everything. Too much of everything is poisonous. Harmony is where it's at.
I have decided to register for this semester. The class is fairly easy and so I know I will be able to pass it without a problem. So by April, I'll be able to start my University studies or go for a vocational course. I will have to sit down and think of what I would like to do as a career and then go for the courses required to attain the position. I'm thinking of either going for graphic arts, sound design, lab. technician or a vocational course I am yet to figure out.
Things are slowly but surely progressing. I should've done these things a long time ago. I blame no one but myself for being so delayed. But I'm working on being better and I'm glad I've moved on and stopped moping around. I'm more motivated than ever. Inspired and eager to get things done. I need to keep this momentum and not let discouragements stun me another time.
Still no love life. Though it seems I may be, in a way, seeing this really pretty girl. Too early to say if it's going to be a regular thing and/or if we actually have something going on. I've decided not to rush into things and take this opportunity to just get to know someone really well first. It's cool to be a couple immediately (like I've always done it), but that just never worked for me in the long run and I'd rather have something a bit more lasting this time around. I'll wait and see if things get a bit clearer between us. I do like her. She's pretty and smart. She likes video games, comic books and coffee. She seems quite the girly type, which is a first to me when it comes to girls I've been interested in. Also, she seems classy (good thing) but at the same time, not appearing to be too high maintenance. Which is a big part of what I like in girls. You can be sexy and not have to wear slutty outfits. Speaking of sexy, she's done a great deal of hiding her body. We've seen each other a few times, but I am yet to actually see her figure. Maybe it's the way she dresses, or maybe it's just that I have not really paid attention to that yet. Her eyes are just kinda... I don't know how to explain. Sometimes, when I'm telling a story, I notice they sort of get lit up and she seem to open them wider. It's probably a good thing that I have not paid much attention to someone's figure. Coz I really don't care much this time. I don't think she's fat nor skinny. And that's an extremely good thing.
She also likes animals and art. Two things in life that I've always appreciated. We have similarities but we do have differences. And that's fine. She said she might not be able to go out as much when school starts and apologized in advance. I thought it was okay since I'm in school too. And like I said, I'm in no rush this time and planned on taking my time to figure out if she likes me enough and if I have a chance. Hopefully, she'll have at least time to see each other at least once every two weeks. If not, I suppose I will just have to hold tight. We're supposed to see a movie today. Hopefully it doesn't rain.
My trip to California had been canceled. I decided not to proceed with the idea because of numerous matters at hand during the time. But it's not something I intend to scrap and throw in the garbage bin. I've put it on hold and planned on executing whenever I get the chance. I'll have to get a significant chunk of my studies done and save some money. Then I'll go ahead and book my flight. And maybe by that time, I'll have a GF to drag along with me and won't have to take on this journey alone. Again.
I have questions I want to be answered. They don't need to be answered, but knowing more about my father wouldn't hurt. I know we look alike. But knowing more would be nice, I guess.
This concludes SitRep entry of January 13, 2013.
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